Day 7 felt like a huge mess! I really struggled with the 30 minutes, and felt very mindless the entire time. I was really disconnected from the whole experience.... which is something I only realized at the END of it. It was such a mess, that I never even took the time to blog about it. Plus, I completely forgot to do a video! Clearly, this is not yet a habit or I would have remembered!
I had "off" yesterday (as any small business owner knows, that is code for 'do a ton of other stuff'). I ended up in the office, somewhat with the intention that I would get in my 30 minutes. I planned to do it immediately upon arriving. We open at noon on Tuesdays, and I had about an hour of quiet before things got rolling.
But, things were rolling when I arrived. The phone rang soon after I came in. And, again, as a small business owner, when people call, you answer! So, I got caught up in one thing, leading to another, and so forth and so on. You've all been there.
I finally decided to "get in" the 30 minutes of self care very late in the afternoon. I felt rushed. I had a lot on my mind. I chose the bio mat. It's an "easy" choice. My biggest mistake? I took in my phone. I planned to listening to music. But, I didn't.
I ended up chatting back and forth on text, answering messages, emails, etc. All of which is unnecessary and can wait 30 minutes. After my session was all done, I was on autopilot to the next thing. But, then I paused... and realized THIS is exactly WHY I really need 30 minutes each day! Because I need to be present, engaged, mindful. I wasn't that at all yesterday.
It was an interesting lesson. Seeing how I quickly dismissed the time I set aside for myself to preoccupied thoughts. I easily distracted myself and focused on everything but myself.
I'm glad I had this experience. It made me reign it in and realize how often I spend time not being present, even if that was my intention to begin with! This isn't a "go through the motions" challenge. Otherwise, it just becomes another "thing" I need to do.
30 minutes is not a tremendous amount of time to unplug. No one needs me that urgently in most cases. It can all wait while I just take a couple of minutes to center myself.